How do you do it, how can you walk without an emotion how can you be so adorable and not be able to love the ones around how can you love and not know how to show it.
Are you lost, do you need someone to find you have you found that person that you lost, that was there when you were not.
Always on the run, never ready for commitment, plans terrify you, events in life keep you always with a tear and a knot in your throat, you want to smile but you can't smile without a tear.
Instead you put your head down and you turn around. Away from reality away from what hurts you.
You are so talented in pushing the right people away, well any people away you don't let them get to close, you don't even let them get to your second layer of your thick skin.
Why do you always have to keep fighting, keep your guard up, keep your eyes open, why can't you not even sleep without dreaming that you are awake and need to see who is watching you. You are always at war. Always on a mission hope you don't return home. Home is what you keep looking for. You lost that touch. You lost the meaning and the feeling of what that looks like.
Why do you like to be alone, why do you get away, don't get close. I want you here Next to me.
I want you to meet me, to discover, to keep digging deeper, to try a little harder to give in a little more, to love without hatred in your heart.
I want you to slowly turn to me, that when I look at myself in the mirror I slowly but surely loose you in the reflect that you become my strength not my enemy.
Please give in a little more. I want you I need you Next to me...
A letter from me to me.
